Talk about light bulb moments. I couldn’t believe it, I didn’t think such thing could happened. Last weekend I met my reflection. She’s my mirror, and all this time she was so close, and coz we’re to much alike, we couldn’t even “talk”. She is my best friends best friend from high school.
We had the same trust problem, the tallest wall ever, insecurity, independent, hard to understand and expecting more understanding from people, she’s a Capricorn, and born in the same year, just three days before me, she had the same problem towards relationship, had a betrayal past at early age, hard to receive other peoples affectionate, the first person who acknowledge good thing about other but failed to acknowledge herself.
But the biggest shock is, she’s like my conscious, live version. Everything that came out of my mouth (mostly excuses) she can slap it back. Just like my heart with a speaker, and I can’t mute her. All the truth came out of her mouth, but it’s easier to receive coz she had the same problem.
The difference is, she made it. Bravo bravo! She’s breaking the wall, and had a taste of the other side. And she said it not easy yan.. you could cry all day even, but it’s possible. I’m still struggling she said, but its alot better than sitting there with ignorance. Cause being apathies is the easiest thing to do.
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dear yana...
my luvly sister once said to me
"if the surroundings could not be change, then, maybe it's your turn to change yourself..."
i guess our bestfriend's bestfriend is absolutely right...
the power to see things differently is in your side, don't ever expect other to change...it's about perspective...right?
when i first decided to move abroad, i had this dilema...but now i've broke my own wall...
the first step is the hardest, i know...but at least i move ... somewhere...not leaving jakarta, but moving on
it doesn't really matter if it was only tiny steps...but at least we're moving somewhere...
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